Result of the Romania trip – I get a team to manage. So generally I tend to be very detail oriented and if the work is not thorough enough I am steaming inside. The view on my face would be like a loving dove, but hell breaks lose and my stress increases.

This time too I had similiar experience, thankfully I am older and have better management tactics and wiser. It did not worry me that much and I could improvise my team. Now they seem to be self-sufficient I have taken a back seat. Just consult them when they need advice. Back to my work journal the amazing black hole. Its amazing because I have a way out of it 🙂

 

She did not cry and woah! A step has been taken.

 

This was an unplanned visit thrown at me just after I returned from my holiday.  Extremely delighted to meet new people new city travelling alone, the offer was accepted. why not! Besides I know my subject well I can run plenty of trainings 🙂

Coming here, training people makes me realise 10 years back I would have been shy nervous and scared.

And now woah I rock and roll. Confidence, knowledge and kindness packaged nicely brings great experiences.

This small city is wrapped around with mountains keeping it secure from windy moments. The main appeal of this city for me was in its cleanliness. People are generally warm, extremely welcoming and jovial. I could see the simplicity in them, no air and very grounded.

The Ottoman Empire is quite a talked about subject here. The jokes about being darker because of the Turks – during the Ottoman ruling it was a mandate on every bride to sleep with a Turk on her wedding night before she consummates with her husband..sounds eeky but yea that carried on for 100 years.

Did some touristy walks around St. Michaels Church and its beauty is emphasized by the powerful aura of a Hungarian ruler in front of the church.

It is a growing city with budding young students filling up the ever expanding universities. Construction does seem like on a flight as modern buildings are popping out pretty quickly.

Taxis are really cheap and are available just like how they are available in India..and they are extremely convenient – you dont need Uber honestly. One taxi driver made us laugh working his way out through different accents – British English, American English, French…a laughter with strangers is miraculous.

At work, lot of women in technology. It is very impressive and a team only of women wow!

This city reminds me of Pune for its youth dominance and laid back vibe. It is a very very safe place, any one can walk anywhere anytime.  I was put up in Golden Tulipa hotel, 6th floor, pretty good views. I did write this blog in this room 607.

 

 

 

Some very pretty pictures clicked by Sameer to capture the meet up.

I kept ranting all that came to my nervous mind. Introverts have a habit of overthinking. Definitely would have loved to spend more time just to have an open talk and confront all that I need too.  Maybe this discussion has to wait until there is a next similiar chance.

I paid.

So it was when I was going through the same question with my daughter…

what do u aspire to be when u grow up?

to that there was a flash of memory.

This was in school in year 5 and it was the first Moral science lecture of the year. The teacher wanted to know all of her students. It was quite unique of her I think to ask every child to say out loud their name, what they aspire to be and what do they think are their strengths for it…

I was quite scared to answer them, to open up my confused head, although like every child I had counted the number of students before me and estimated roughly the time for my turn and I went through all of my likes dislikes strengths and weakness to be able to answer it..

I generally find it very difficult to lie, it surrounds me with guilt and depression later on. So making it up was out of question, or saying it just for the heck of it would mean not being myself.

it was my turn – there I stood up ” I am Masuma, well I guess I can become a beautician or a make up artist, as I can make other people look beautiful and I said I can understand other people really well that is my strength.”

So in middle of wannabe doctors, teachers, actors and engineers I was the one with a very simple answer.

This indeed helps me relate to my kids better whenever their answers are not conventional, as I realise it reflects deeper and honest thinking.

 

Do you ever wonder what u are? how are u changing? what brings to you the little subtleties that works its way towards some permanent or rather noticeable changes?

Retrospect!! – it answers those questions.

The age period  of 20 – 40 leaves you with the major impact of any influences. This is the period when you are constantly defining your personality through your community, your company, your work, your friends, your adventures, your mishaps, your surroundings, your family.

This is the period when your personality is most exposed.

Infrastructure, ways of day to day life and the happiness quotient of the area you reside in also plays a big factor.

The values that develops with childhood does not get overriden, they mature.

 

It is going to be 10 years this 2016 – away from home! in a relationship, in a different life.

With every passing year the realization is that the distance to my past keeps widening and a lot of special memories are slipping away. I can relive them, I can bring back few of them in my head for a replay.

Too many aspects of my life that has shaped me.

childhood – dadaji, mumbai, sainiketan, friends, family – These were some fantastic days..

rains in mumbai..

a simple memory of returning home from school in heavy rains without umbrella 🙂

🙂 a lot of things are unsaid. I am very thankful to life so far!

I miss a lot of people. the joys when they were around at the time. precious! value people. u will surely miss them. so be there with them at the time!

these 10 years were the beginning, so much yet to learn, to discover, to tread on, to suffer, to witness, to achieve, to reach…

We aim to support, to hold each other…in bitterness and in sweetness. Certainly any relationship that is joyful does have love! spread the joy.