Author: Masuma

on my engagement anniver dated 16th may 2007

| Masuma

To Remember 15th may

It is a merry day

The blow of 15th may

Hitted force on us

and we united in flux

change that was caused

brought reality that bossed

It was a delight to feel fresh and new

As Feeling of “Is Mine” came strongly through

Discotheques that located in our hearts

Went louder with beats that pulsed so hard

As every ritual tightened the loose

Making firmer a knot that wanted to fuse

The first day of our engagement

Was a sweet terror and my enlightment

This day of change will be remembered every year

To relive the feelings and expect gifts from my dear

Darkness — Dated 1st May 2006

| Masuma

Its in the midst of darkness
The souls finds the frankness

Of the living in each second
Dropping hope that lied of heaven

Restless beats of mental strain
Changing the life to focus on a single aim

Dearth of support that would help to rise and shine
Succumbs each moment leaving only a bine

A gentle thought of love for life
Brings the vigor to fight the price

Every attempt to reduce the haze
Needs effort to get free from a complex maze

Slowly stepping with a smile thats fake
Letting the light to creep over dark shade

Saving the need to hope again
Finally reaches sun to bid disdain.

Evening Dated 30 April 2007

| Masuma

The satin touch of dark blue sky
Pearls and diamonds flaunting up high

The evening blows whistling quiet
Swirls cooling the skin in fright

The dancing trees waving the day
bringing the laze with mirth and gay

The freshness of smell brings the urge
Food on stove to reach the empty paunch

LossNation —>dated 26th april 2007

| Masuma

LossNation

Wearing the fun
With armour and gun

Dreaming of their love
At the lines they bow

All lit for the shine
bringing sparks to shrine

Its a play for the power
losing love every hour

It is not realised
that no cause is justified

Giggle that was aloud
Goes silent in a shout

End to every such game
Hammers a fresh new name

Tragedy

| Masuma

It was a very special day

Buying flowers on his way

He was dressed with white shine

Aromated, with bottle of red wine

Whistling the tune of Β“Love is in the airΒ”

Speeding easily to kiss his fair

Carrying a ring that glittered with diamonds

Thinking of her in a frock of white garment

Emotions kept bringing smiles of shy

Waiting to say just a Hi

Opened the door with a heart filled of joy

To express his love on their very first anniversary

Seeing his wife loving some man

Tight lipped lost a heartbeat in stare.

Gosh the wife felt inside

On noticing his emotion at his lovely sight

The dawn of surprise

Ended in a huge price

Note: I have to refine and frame many paras here its yet not complete

28 sept 2016 – > Again not very beautiful where it should had been at the most tragic place..a TODO

ChainShame – A new experience

| Masuma

11-July 2006

we decided to meet for the evening….sadly though the mumbai bomb blasts wavered Pune. For the security of the civilians the Police started patrolling and hence the eve was nothing but filled with silence and distance. 😦 we could not meet.

12-July 2006

We decided to meet at around 5:00 p.m….I left office early that day. Hussain had come to my office to pick me up on his bike. His bike was loaded with two bags, I anticipated goodies πŸ™‚ mann mai ladoo to phoot rahe the lekin maine kuch zaahir nahin kiya

We were intending to go for a nice date, but it was too early to dine. So hussain took me to one quiet place where we could talk and have our privacy!

Now the bag opens and my gifts one by one pops out….many many!! He did justice to his style of presenting me those lovely gifts.. πŸ™‚ a lot many memories formed here!!

The interesting part starts now, it was 7ish. We left that quiet place to look for a nice place. The definition of nice place for me was something grand, but it was something else in Hussain’s head πŸ™‚ hehehehehehe

We went to MalaKa Spice at Koregaon park, its nice ambience but somehow Hussain was not very willing and then his will to step in strongly faded!! heheheeh now where…i then said ABC farms lets go there, there are many restaurants out there..

He just wanted to go where i would like to but it had to be matching his definition, so he did not deny my Idea and we reached ABC farms, the restaurants here are lawn concept based, they are lovely and the ambience is only yellow lights in the dark, every restaurant here is a different cuisine we checked all of them….somehow hussain was still …..ab kya karna…it was evident and then we moved out from here also.

He attempted to think of a place and he said lets go to MainLand CHina.We reached there!! He was aware that live music was played there where songs could be dedicated, but sadly it had stopped. He demanded a table for us in the garden, but then we did not manage the table there. So we were offered a table in the restaurant. It was lovely ambience. The lady offered us a couch, but this couch was facing the entrance, and as well all the tables around, so Hussain denied that, then we took a corner table. Here Hussain was not comfortable so we took another couch table which was opposite to the entrance, now this was not very open to the public eye. He was finally in a state of bliss, because he found the right hotel and the right table.

We placed the order for food and there the romance was building up!! We again got caught up in some sidy talks of ours… πŸ™‚ after a while Hussain says “I have got for you something more”, he removed a small little jewellery box.

i was getting hopeful, he asked me to close my eyes put my hand out….i could not believe whats happening, i know hussain , i knew he is upto some prank…but it was all very romantic…i did not know what to do…

he repeated “close ur eyes and put your hand out” and he took a promise from me “What i give you, promise me that u will wear it and if anybody asks u whats it, just smile ok!” ….hmmm my doubt on him that its a prank was getting all the more confirmed!! hehehehehe but yet i took a chance!!

i closed my eyes and had my hand out…now imagine this its really funny a sight!! then what hussain does is puts some necklace around my neck…, my hand was out which was looking so funny!! when he put something around my neck the cold touch of metal on my neckline made me feel really good, i thought its not a prank …wo i was feeling really happy….and then when i opened my Eyes!!

what a shock!!

My eyes popped out —-“it was a chain made of safety Pins !! hahahahahahhahahahahhahahahhaah”

i could not could not stop smiling and laughing…..He enjoyed all this!! all this while!!

and then he gave me the real gift, it was a chain and pendant of white gold with a diamond studded in it!!

wo!! right. It left me happy, but his prank was all the more amazing to experience!!

I loved that real gift and the prank gift both.

Though i wore the safety-pin chain all the way back home!! πŸ™‚

A pic of us both and do notice that chain!!

and his definition of the nice place was a grand place, we should be sitting close and we should not be facing many people also!! heheheheehehehe

nothing

| Masuma

I assume I live in nothing

everything around when given a thought is nothing.

Nothing in the perspective if we lay it in the most feeble importance.

and yes it goes that way…

but yet i live in the perception of everything
to make life seem interesting

its just the perception to look at things so one can make nothing or everything out of anything.

Random thoughts

| Masuma

I cant figure out the truth.

Is everything destined to happen. Is there a choice or NOT?

for e.g. it was always known how Imaam Hussain will face troubles and his sacrifice for Islam.
It was know even before he was born rather even before Islam came…

in his case destiny was known.

That was just an example from the religious facts.
Coming to us is every move of us planned by HIM.As the way each soul lives (soul in any living form) is detailed the way its gotta be executed by GOD, just that he makes us feel that all what we will do next is in our control to some extent…we feel that we are free…but the free thoughts are completely controlled by HIM?? i really wonder

but if its so then the BAD and the GOOD becomes neutral as in it was meant to be the way it was designed hence it is just is…then in that case all are equal…no one goes through suffering after death??? again i wonder.

And if its all to happen the way it has to..i really dont understand what joy must be god deriving out of the stories he is directing from somewhere…..because there is no audience but except HIM….the others that is the other living forms react the way he wants each one to.

Then why has he made all of us…this period of lifecycle..why is living required…

Am sure when i die i will get answer to all my questions…

but still living just because we have to live and since we are living we will behave like one human or just potraying the characters we are designed to

and bad is also not bad..if one is bad to the other , the other becomes more stronger in life so the bad has turned out to be good for him/her. So even bad is good.